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I need to find a way to keep my life on track. A reason not to spend my days vegitating in this flat And I think I've finally found it. Found it in you. You give me a reason to wake up in the morning, A reason for me to go out and make something of myself. And I believe, To keep you in my life, That that is what I must do. I vow, here and now, To make something of myself. For you. For me. For us.

All I want is you, You make my life complete. I know we've only known each other for such a short time, But I feel like I've known you forever. I know I could tell you my deepest secrets And you wouldn't judge me. I could tell you anything. Just knowing you are near brings a smile to my face. I spend my days thinking about you, And my nights dreaming about your beautiful face. I look forward to seeing you, And I know we're perfect for each other. I can see us spending our lives together, Growing old together, And nothing makes me happier. All I want is you.

I can feel it coming on, Like an imminent nuclear explosion. I fear it. It's worse than before, Worse than it's ever been. I feel like this could finally be the end of my sanity. My mind will crack in two Like a china plate dropped from a great height. I fear the insanity. I fear the becoming. I don't feel like myself. It's as if someone else is controlling my psyche And there's nothing I can do. I need to escape. But the only way to escape Is to die. And that's something I no longer wish to do. I've finally found the girl of my dreams And I won't give her up for anything. Nothing will tear me away from her. Nothing, apart

New year, new start? Is it fuck! Still here, Still stuck in the same old rut. I know I should be in town, finding work. But I can't. My mind won't allow it. I meant to get up early today, Get into town before all the jobs were gone. One o'clock I got up. Its as if my body is saying YOU HAVE TO DO THIS, But my mind just won't allow it. I just don't have the "get up and go" that I need. Dad's riding me about getting a job, But it makes no difference to me. At Nan's the other day, she actually started crying about it. "I just want to see you sort your life out before I go". I resolved myself then to get my life on track. I couldn

My life has come to a standstill, yet again. Once more, I'm left with no job and nowhere to live. It's beginning to irk me. It's becoming a regular thing, Something I'm apparently powerless to stop. I can't get out of this rut. There seems to be no escape. But is there a way out? A way I can stop all this pain? If so, how? I fail to see a possible route out of here. I swear down, I'm gonna be left like this Going round and round in circles For the rest of my life. I can't get out of it. I'm 19 for fucks sake, In the same dilemma as when I was 14. No way out... No escape... I'm going to be here forever, My life being sucked